My girlfriend is always telling me that people come and go, and that it’s almost useless to worry and stress about “friends” because really, they can be gone today and back tomorrow, and needless to say my life has taught me this lesson time and again. Of course, now I’m a lot more cautious as to what judgements I hold, and on who, because who knows? That exact same person who I talk down to could very well be a good friend of mine next week. A bitexaggeratedI know, but still, life, especially mine, is too unexpected to be so bitter and so angry. That being said, it also is somewhat discouraging to know that who you hold true and dear right now, may not necessarily be around in a few months. But then again, this is the reality of life, and something which all of us must eventually learn.
On that note, how wonderful it feels to have a heartfelt, sincere and candid conversation with somebody who’s known me for almost 21 years. Someone who I needn’t feel shy about regarding any aspect of my life; financial, academic or personal. A person who still loves me unconditionally despite how much pain & grief I may have caused her in the past, and despite the obvious disrespect which I’ve both privately andpubliclyshown her. I guess that’s the joys of being a parent, to literally love unconditionally, and be so accepting that it’s almost unbearable – overwhelming even. Words could never begin to describe how much gratitude, affection, sheer pride I hold in her, and how much I feel I should do to “pay” her back for everything that she’s done in my life. But that’s the most beautiful thing isn’t it? Its done without any expectancy of anything in return. How blessed I am to have such God-fearing parents. Such frank and blunt parents. Such open and accepting parents. Such hilarious parents.
I don’t know what I would do without my favorite woman, my all-time Valentine, the one who I shop the most for. Thanks for everything you’ve ever done in my life, and all you’ve yet to do.
SIDEBAR: Picture taken at my 18th Birthday celebrations, March 31 2006, the Sheraton, Calgary.